A crucial point...

I was on the brink of signing out to rest for awhile since I was as always...multi-tasking again to exhaustion. Cooking...washing some soiled clothes...since it was all done and we have had eaten lunch too...think I have the feel to go back to bed after being up at 5am kicking my legs, while everybody's still snoring in their crib...arghh!
Let's tackle the issue...my daughter's bestfriend, a young guy...2 years her junior is in a gloomy mood. Why? His grandma, on his father's side...btw, I have learned that he still have yet to see his biological father. Both parents are estranged. Poor young boy. The grandma insists that this boy take the journey to priesthood trail instead. This coming semester he'll be going to take up the exams on priesthood which is Theology I guess. I don't know the exact course on this matter. I have a cousin who really must have loved being a priest. He is right now serving his mission in far away Africa. Indeed it's his passion to serve people. But this young guy who has a dream of his own away from what his grandma thinks and wishes for him...is putting the young guy in a selfish box repressing his own true identity and freedom. I wonder how he thinks now that it is only a few months away from now. He will be put in exile inside the seminary that he never dreamt of...an out and out violation of decision making. I just hope I didn't have to push my children like this in any manner. We have the right to choose what we think we like to achieve as long as this won't hurt nor prejudice anyone. For my daughter's friend...I just hope everything will turn out well. Wheew! What a way...to live your life if this is going to happen. Only the person has his freedom to choose what's best for him. Please don't make things harder for our children. Don't make them an extension of our self whims or dreams. We as parents are obliged to help them in the most manner we can do. Do not try to suppress their freedom as long as it is just on the right track. We are here to help and guide but not to implement the militaristic obey-first-before-you-complain rule. Give them a chance to live their lives.

I was there!

Yup, I was one of the spectators who flooded to see them live at Nagoya Dome for their 2008 Lost Highway Tour. Indeed I felt so lucky...and blest too being one of the audience in the nearest arena...I love this band. I love everyone in the group. Bon Jovi...Richie Sambora...Tico and one in keyboard, mea culpa...I missed the name.

I am woman...

I graduated high school from which girl to girl relationship was a common thing. A lot of lesbianism (not that serious one) was accepted...those who went sporty and, as a matter-of-fact they treated me as one...so I took everyone for a ride. I told myself...go with the flow...but honestly speaking I knew all along that I was indeed a girl inside. But my ways, I was kinda tomboyish, maybe because I grew up with strong character. I loved to be with my father most of the time in the farm and we would always talk about things life was made of. He was my hero. I learned a lot of ABC's in life. How to be strong and be principled. So maybe because of this, they mistook that I was indeed a lesbian. There were times that girls would send feelers, but honestly speaking I haven't had had any moments dreaming to be in the company of a woman like me in a suggestive moods or any. I love my preference and I respect my friends who are mostly lesbians. Time came that I learned how to do make up and act rather womanly now because it's the way I feel. Well, that was a choice indeed and I like it that way. Right now I am married and sad to say...my marriage wasn't so lucky at all. After long blissful union...it was marred by a third party and due to some misunderstanding and a lot of differences too. It is quite a painful thing to tackle but I believe I was left with no choice but to accept things as they are. My children will only serve as an anvil of the blows, if me and my husband would choose to hammer each one. Acceptance is the best tool I guess, so I took everything in stride and now it is just a simple matter to me now. But still there were times that I would just breakdown and cry. I don't know...maybe I was badly hurt and bruised inside. I was carried away...but going back, I am telling this that inside and out...I am a woman. And that is my choice.
And indeed I am truly happy the way I veer...away from my friends' preference.



I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

CHORUS
Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

CHORUS

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land
But I'm still an embryo
With a long long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman
Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong

FADE
I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman

If you're not the one

Between you and me

I pride myself for being again an ear to listen to someone who in a way became so close to me. A very good friend of mine...a dear heart. It is always an elation if one comes to me and reveal something that seems to be like Damocles sword hanging on his head. Once again, I am always only a positive listener. I only gave him my 2cents worth...and make it sure not to even hurt his pride. I love to be a shoulder to lean on especially if one is really reaching out for help. My friend is a bisexual. And for me, I think he has somehow heaved a deep sigh...now that he has just unloaded that burden. Well...how could I not be a friend still anyway nothing has change at least I've been able to impart some good and uplifting advices that he needed most. And he took it meekly and positively. I have no intention to reveal his identity since I am protecting him and I just hope the confusion will be over. I don't encourage him to develop such...since he too is trying to control everything...to protect his daughter and his work. He is a great guy and I do hope in time he'll get to admit that he has overcome the confusion...if it's still avoidable. But so far...we're not here to condemn anybody.

PS/ To you my friend...I will always be here for you. I am just a text away... **hugs**

Two-spirit in one body

Well...guess what, another male friend of mine did some disclosure just a few hours ago. He is tall with soft brawny frame at 6 ft tall maybe...swarthy...straitlaced if I were to describe him...and very bright and timid. We exchanged text messages until he threw some hint that he wasn't as happy in his life. He has a 2 year old daughter and he plays undercover. I got it right away and asked if he was straight and there's no need to be afraid to tell me because we're friends and all that. Bullseye! He said maybe he's a bisexual. And according to Wikipedia,

Bisexuality refers to sexual behavior with^[1] or physical attraction to people of both genders (male and female), or a bisexual orientation. People who have a bisexual orientation "can experience sexual, emotional, and affectional attraction to both their own sex and the opposite sex"; "it also refers to an individual’s sense of personal and social identity based on those attractions, behaviors expressing them, and membership in a community of others who share them."^[2] It is one of the three main classifications of sexual orientation, along with a heterosexual and a homosexual orientation. Individuals who do not experience sexual attraction to either sex are known as asexual.

According to Alfred Kinsey's research into human sexuality in the mid-20th century, many humans do not fall exclusively into heterosexual or homosexual classifications but somewhere between.^[3] The Kinsey scale measures sexual attraction and behavior on a seven-point scale ranging from 0 (exclusively heterosexual) to 6 (exclusively homosexual). According to Kinsey's study, a substantial number of people fall within the range of 1 to 5 (between heterosexual and homosexual). Although Kinsey's methodology has been criticized, the scale is still widely used in describing the continuum of human sexuality.

Bisexuality has been observed in various human societies^[4] and elsewhere in the animal kingdom^[5][6][7] throughout recorded history. The term bisexuality, however, like the terms hetero- and homosexuality, was only coined in the 19th century.^[8]

Just live and let live!

I have a male friend, but he's a she, a closeted one. One day he disclosed something to me about his preference. He told me he's not a straight guy. Well, I just took it lightly though, careful not to slight him or making him feel off. I knew one when I see one...and said...it your choice, there's got to be no problem. We're not here anyway to condemn people of who they are but how they live their life with other people. If he's respectful and sensible, what's wrong with that? Live and let live, my motto. Then at one time he, and his beau...and me lunched somewhere and we had a great talk. They're both nice and as I believe, the he was also a she...summing it as one example of a G2G relationship. Well the beau is now based in LA...while my friend went to work for Singapore, found a niche there to save his dough and plan for a future reunion with his lover-gay friend. A story of love. Good thing when you're a good and positive listener...they'll trust you...and respect you in return.

Bedrock...

Like a true diamond it describe a person synonymous to something unbroken...of course I mean in spirit. Let us be like a diamond also that is hard, say in principle and in goals. As human, we are liable to err and slide...but if our foundation is something of a bedrock, how can we ever go wrong? As diamond resists blows to such an extent that an iron hammer may be split in two and even the anvil itself maybe displaced. Let not others push you go wrong. Be firm in what you believe is true and real. Because in the end you'll take responsibility of everything, and not the person butting out beside you. Be wary of those who you do business with. Just be safe in your own quarry.

Hiding behind filigrees...

I've been managing eight blogsites all at the same time. It's quite fulfilling but somehow I thought of having this one without carrying my real identity. I just want something like this, different from my other sites wherein my friends knew it was me behind. With something like this, one will want me because they want what I write...and not because they are my friends or playing friends...or whatsoever. No links or not even to promote something. If you want to visit my site and read what I have here, you're most welcome...if not...it's your prerogative and I respect every comments you'll give. Good or bad...
This site is open to those who has problems on any matter. Matters of the heart specially and I am more than willing to be of help...lol...giving you some advices...well good thing if it works well. I hope and pray it will...and who doesn't have one by the way?! Me too...was or had been entangled with lots of problems but when I do give my advices, they were as they said...had been lifted up. Whoah! It's great!
And so...am gonna hide behind my pen name....Diamond
I like diamonds because diamond stays forever.